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something that makes my eyes roll is when people put all the responsibility on ”THEM” or “THEY” or ”THE GOVERNMENT”

they’re not feeding the poor
they’re not improving the schools
they’re not cleaning the streets

they they they they 🙄

like bitch, why don’t YOU do something

why don’t you go volunteer and gather up some people to feed the hungry?

why don’t you and 10 of your complaining friends donate monthly to improve education?

when was the last time you cleaned up your own community?

Why are we putting all the responsibility on

”THEY” and “THEM”?

YOU go do something and stop waiting for anybody else

YOU be the damn change

Earth is all of our home

Any one of us can make a positive impact, however small

Did you know you could pick up trash in your neighborgood just like THEY could?

Let’s start taking some personal accountability for the changes we wish to see

Let’s work together to make Earth a pleasant place for life to thrive in

This is all of our homes

and you and I can take responsibility too, not just ”them”

Proposal: Why Don’t We…

Why don’t we make planet Earth a more enjoyable place for us all to live in

Why don’t we make things easier for each other

We have the power to work together to change the rules

Why not make it easier for us all

Why do homes need to be hundreds of thousands to millions of dollars
Why do work days need to be so long
Why do degrees have to be so expensive making our people start their careers already in a financial deficit
Why are we making each other struggle when we could create more balance, more harmony instead

Why don’t we work together to improve systems that are keeping people in poverty
Why don’t we work together to reduce work days and create better schedules so our people can have more time to actually enjoy life and work reasonable hours

What’s this rush and hustle system we have put in place that is contributing to stress, overwhelm, depression and burnout. People are working hard and still just getting by

What conversations do we need to be having so that we can educate our people
Where we can prioritize mental health, wellbeing, and create better systems that allow for more ease and flow

Everyone is important

Why should the pizza makers struggle just because they are pizza makers? Don’t we enjoy pizza?
Why should our servers struggle just because they serve? Don’t we enjoy sitting in restaurants and being served?
Why should our doctors and nurses be overworked? Can’t we create better scheduled rotation systems?

What is the conversation that we need to be having so we can create a better world for ourselves

Why are we hurting each other instead of working together as a team for our beautiful home – the EARTH

Everyone matters
The sanitation workers
The piolets
The servers
The icee man selling coco, cherry, mango icee on the sidewalk

The train conductor
The bus driver
The deli man
The baker
The creatives
The architects
The instagram influencer
The artists
The fill in the ___________________

we all contribute

why should a human be seen as less than because they have a different calling?
The tree is not a flower and a flower is not a rock and a rock is not the ocean and the ocean is not the land – yet each element plays its own role in the ecosystem that is life

so why don’t we make our planet – which is home to us all who reside here – an enjoyable place for us to be?

we can work together to improve health care, share knowledge, share each others gifts in support of making our world a good place we can be proud of

whatever the obstacles, let’s talk about it, let’s use good reason
let’s honor the differences and find a way to respect the differences but still have harmony

like a song with different tones — each tone is unique, yet it can still be in harmony with the other

Cuddled

Some moments are truly better than others

Those moments of waiting…
Waiting in line
Waiting for a text
Waiting for things to fall into place
Ugh…

Those moments where you are going through the storms of life
Bad news
The car breaks down
You miss the flight
Ugh…

And then there are those moments
aahhh mmmm
Those sweet, sweet moments you wish would never end

Being nestled in your arms
Legs intertwined like a pretzel
The feel of your soft skin resting on mine light a weighted blanket
The subtle smell of your pheromones
Lights dimmed to nothing
Comfortably spinning with you on a rock in space
Perfect temperature
Not hungry

Not wanting…

not wanting anything else but to be cuddled with you


Alone

Ok. I need you to understand that you ARE alone

you are alone

read it again…

you ARE alone

You can have people around you
You can even be having sex
but you ALONE are experiencing what you experience

Yes there is someone next to you
But you ALONE are having that experience

There is no one else within you but you
Each being is its own being

When you get comfortable with this truth
You can learn to stop trying to get an external thing to ultimately fulfill you
Because there is no external thing that could

I do think that perhaps there are more ideal external circumstances
Environments that are more conducive to feelings of happiness and joy, comfort, fulfillment

Like being at a beautiful beach with your beloved sipping a mojito will be much more delightful than getting your foot bitten off by a shark

So yes – there are perhaps more favorable external circumstances

But it doesn’t change that in all circumstances – favorable, unfavorable or in between — you ALONE are the ONE experiencing the experience

Get comfortable with your own company
You don’t need to go anywhere or find anyone or anything in order to BE

You already are
and “wherever you go, there you are”

Be okay with you, whether you are standing at the grocery store, sitting on the toilet, making love, sitting in traffic or bored in your room with nothing to do for the evening.

Just fucking be okay with yourself already, alright???

You are alone. That’s it, there’s nothing to be resolved there. Being alone is not a problem.

Being alone does not have to mean lonely.
Loneliness does not happen only as a result of being alone. You can be in a crowd of people and still feel lonely. You can be in a relationship and still feel lonely.

Feeling lonely and being alone are two different things

You can be alone in the shower singing joyfully to your shampoo bottles and feel perfectly fine

And you can also be alone and feel lonely

lonely is a feeling
Alone is what you are

and it shouldn’t scare you that you are alone (you already ARE… and look at you now, just reading these words all fine and shit in your aloness. See? It’s not scary. You’re fine. YOU’RE FINE)

The fact that you are alone and you can just BE in your lonesome, that should empower you not scare you

You are your guarantee

Even when everyone and everything falls away, you will still be the ONE it all falls away from, and who will be there on the other side of it all? Yep. You got — YOU.

Until you fall away too and it all fades to nothing, but that’s a whole other story

death

I feel like death is something we don’t talk much about

So I wanna talk about it…
because it’s something that is lurking to find us all at some point or another

it’s a strange thing…
we never really know when it’s coming

It makes me sad when I think about it
When I think about life slipping away

I’m doing all this work for it all to just be taken away by the hands of time


One day I will have to say good bye to my body,
good bye to my life and everything I’ve created

what a harsh truth to swallow

nothing is ever ours
NOTHING

so stop thinking anything is truly yours, “my boyfriend, my car, my house, my dog”
yours nothing… everything passes, everything fades — you keep nothing.

Some say there is an after life
Some say we reincarnate
Some say you go to heaven or hell
Some say there is some in between place — purgatory
Some say you die and that’s it — that’s the end

I say — I don’t know what happens, because I really freakin’ don’t…

Is there a chance my consciousness can live without a physical body? If so, for how long?

Even if my consciousness can be transferred to a different host, this body that I now possess will eventually give out. I will have to let go.

It makes me sad to think of myself getting old
To think of my body not being as strong, not as attractive

It makes me sad to think of my loved ones passing away

It makes me sad to think of letting go

This death thing, man… it’s quite a topic to reflect on

The other day as I walked home from the beach I sort of dissociated for a moment as I looked around me at people passing by… some waiting for the light to turn… other’s standing in a corner among themselves talking… a family going for a stroll — isn’t it weird we are all strangers to each other? Just a bunch of strangers crossing the same street. We live on this planet together, but we ignore each other and just keep walking by.

that same day I had a weird thought come through — “we’re all just waiting to die.”

Death, that is our destination.

We go about our lives not really talking about this.
We are born, we experience some things, and at some point we die — death — that is what you’re amounting to.

What exactly is death?

Is it when the body can no longer function in support of your consciousness?

Is time travel a possibility? Could we come back to the same point in time? What is the nature of reality?

I love this being that I am — I would hate to never see her again.

😦

death…
sigh

this topic makes me deeply sad
and it makes me wonder, if ultimately my life just ends, am I making it worth it?

am I loving enough
laughing enough
dancing enough
exploring enough
enjoying enough
or am I too worried about how I look and how much I’ve acquired that I am missing the opportunity to truly live?

damn, idk
lot’s to think about

Sadness

Sadness is a feeling I am all too familiar with

The other day I was journaling and noticing how blessed I am…


Full belly
Food in the fridge
Comfortable couch decorated with colorful throw pillows to sit on
Candle lit
Plants and flowers around
Fire place lit
Living in a beach town
Wearing a cute outfit, nails painted in a cute blue color and fingers adorned with stylish rings
Glass of wine
Healthy body
Friends
A lover

Yet with all there is to be grateful for, why is there still some persistent underlying feeling of sadness that lingers around throughout my days? What is it within me that keeps this feeling alive?

So…

I started to explore it…

Maybe it’s biological? Maybe my body is used to producing this familiar chemical and so it is biologically triggered…

Maybe I like it? Maybe there is a part of me that enjoys the sadness? So much art and reflection can come from this state…

Maybe it’s because of the suffering of the world? How can I rest and be truly happy if there is suffering in the world?

Maybe it’s because I will die… and everything is just passing. I’m working and working and doing and doing — and for what? For it all to end and pass away? The beautiful moments quickly evaporate and morph into the next. The day becomes the night. The young become the old…. and eventually the beginning meets the end 😥

So what is it all for?
What am I living for?
Why am I here?
Why is there something?
What is this experience?
What is even the point? 😦

And why is it that even though I am happy, I am also sad….?




Let Go

We have to learn to let go

Things come to an end,
they change

and yes it’s going to hurt

I think about it almost like a piercing…
It hurts in the moment
and through the healing process

but eventually it heals… and just becomes part of your story

You can’t be so attached to things that you don’t know how to be content on your own

Things come and go

and eventually you die — which is the big LET GO…

so don’t be shocked when things end

learn to adapt

learn to let go

(or invent a time machine so you can always go back in time)….

but until then

learn to accept that you don’t control when someone chooses to walk away

or when things come to an end

that’s the process

and that’s okay

let go

Expectations

There’s a terrible pain that comes with unmet expectations

When you have an image of what life should look like

When you have hopes of what could be

When you create a vision in your mind’s eye

But then find that reality does not match it

You find yourself disappointed

Because what you thought would be is not

Because you saw things going one way yet life had other plans

WTF is that all about?
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Then there is also the burden of expectations

The pressure to make something of your life and meet specific metrics society has set fourth

Or perhaps the expectations you believe society has of you so you just blindly go along with thinking you need/want something maybe you actually don’t (were it not expected of you)

Here is the thing:
You will have hopes, dreams and wishes
You will create plans
But they won’t always be met in reality
At least not in your timing, and not entirely the way you imagined

and sometimes….
sometimes it does all come together

keep your hope
but also be flexible
disappointments happen

delays happen

and sometimes it’s in the detours
the wrong turns
and in the unexpected, that we find magic beyond what we could have ever conceived

Answer

I’ve been thinking a lot about love

aaand… I’m pretty convinced it’s THE ANSWER

not love in a romantic, idealized way — though that’s part of it too 😉

I mean love in a vibrational sense

Which is not something quite understood by thought alone

it’s something that is experienced

It’s a way

It’s the fact of all facts

It’s the motherlode

It’s actual and literal perfection

It’s a force

It’s a thing and not a thing

It’s a paradox

It’s not a paradox (lol)

It’s confusing, it makes all the sense

and it is something that I am still in process of understanding

I’m falling in love with life

the world

my body

with the minor details embedded in the fibers of existence

in the beauty woven into every moment that unravels and dissolves into the nothingness

There’s been thoughts of the eternal

Does it end?

Will it all end?

What does that look like for there to be an end?

Does it re-spawn out of nothing all over again?

Did it ever spawn out of nothing to begin with?

hmmmm…. lots to think about


I think I’m in love

but I don’t know

Just gonna roll with it

….

Also, how do we stop being mean to one another?

How do we learn to communicate better?

To forgive? To heal? To quantum leap and stop with our bullshit

Also important stuff to think about

It’s all in the work, bitches

I’ve also been listening to a lot of Brazilian music

I just wanna dance naked on beach with a margarita

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