A day without you feels like an eternity.
But I don’t want to get carried away.
I’ve done that and it led me to fall off a cliff I’m still licking the wounds from.
How do you remain balanced — centered, when all you want to do is get deeply lost in love?
To lose track of time and just rest my head on your shoulder while you tell me about your next business endeavor. I could listen forever.
I’m already getting carried away. Apparently I can’t help it… something about the way my astral chart is positioned apparently makes me “romantic and impractical.” #Thepattern. Sounds about right.
Anyway…I’m kinda mad. Mad that I am in a human body and not just floating in space like magical fairy dust.
These bodies just feel so dense and this world so full of nonsensical demands, I’m kinda over it.
How is it that with all our brilliance the best we’ve got is sick time, PTO, and bills?
Why aren’t our systems set up to support us to actually live? It breaks my heart seeing mothers who would want to raise their babies having to leave their babies to go do a job just to get by. Families being split up during the day when they would much rather be together, raising their babies.
Don’t get me started.
Anyway, I am dreaming up a non-profit. One where we volunteer our labor to construct each other’s homes. I’d call it “The Volunteer Society”. We could raise funds to acquire construction materials. We would come together as a collective and volunteer our time and labor to create gorgeous homes for each other. All we need is each other. The Earth has already provided what we need.
I have a lot of great ideas but often not a lot of energy for execution or enough support. A problem I keep running into that makes it very heavy for me and sometimes makes me want to give up hope.
Anyway………….
I’m in love, as usual. With you, with me, with life, with everything….
And also in despair at times…..
Bleh.
Must keep believing.
It all still feels so far away and I feel like I am failing.
Feelings aren’t facts though, so gotta watch out for the cognitive trap of “emotional reasoning”.
Idk. Nothing is a guarantee anyway.
Keepin’ the faith though. Keepin’ the faith.
The dream feels so much better than the reality.
And as a dreamer, I just want to live in the fantasy.
I want to live in the Ether.
I want to be in the lightwave.
This morning I was walking the neighborhood towards the beach,
The temperature felt perfect.
The air felt sweet and filled deeply in my lungs.
I felt a juicy sense of peace.
“This.” I thought. This is how we are meant to be feeling.
Not rushing around trying to make ends meet.
Not feeling like we are worried about resources,
afraid we won’t have money.
We are meant to be LIVING.
We are meant to be provided for because the Earth already provides all we need.
The Earth grows our food freely.
The Earth grows the resources we need for our homes.
The Earth gave us the animals,
it gave us EACH OTHER.
We should be caring for each other.
Working as a way to contribute to our well-being and good.
WTF is all this extra non-sense?
I’m not having it.
We can be so dulled down by the way society has beaten us into a reality we may not be that excited to wake up to.
We are doing it.
We should live with deep sighs of relief. With peace in our hearts. With health pulsating through our bodies. Yet we are tense, afraid, rushing, stressed. WTF is that about?
We should have time for each other. Time for our babies. Time for simply living. Our energy is so poorly allocated. We are working to raise money to pay rent which is a never ending cycle when the Earth has already provided the materials but capitalism won’t stop running you down. It infuriates me.
I know something is off here. And I am going to do something about it. Even if it’s just write you this message. “Alone we can do so little, together we can do so much.”
I thought it was real but it was just reality smacking me in the face… again. How many times must one be smacked in the face before waking up? Apparently 1,467.
I am trying with every fibre of my being to not become apathetic. To continue to believe in magic even when I cannot see it. To refuse to bend to this world of zombies working for a paycheck when work is meant to be for having-ness sake. No other species pays to live on the planet. Yet we’ve sold ourselves to something that isn’t even real.
I don’t want blabber on too long today.
Do you believe in manifestation? I did when I saw you walk into the room. I did when you said hello. I did when you told me to call you.
So where did I go wrong?
The Earth provides all we need
Never does it charge us anything for it
Never does the mango tree say to thee “That’ll be $1”
Never do the berry bushes tell you that’ll be “$4.99 plus tax”.
It is the Earth that provides the trees which you turn to housing
We are born of the Earth. Naked.
Food doesn’t come from the grocery store – food comes from the Earth.
You don’t come from a corporation, you come from the Earth. Naked.
Somewhere along the process of evolution, humans invented money to facilitate the exchange of goods and services. Somewhere along the way the purpose of money became severely distorted. We now WORK FOR MONEY. It’s absurd.
Our work is contribution. Work is meant to be a means to provide for one another. To care. To share. To collaborate. To co-create. For our pleasure, good, and enjoyment. NOT FOR MONEY.
Our energy is poorly allocated. We are working to pay bills. What a terrible idea. Our systems are meant to serve us. Our systems should be to support our well-being, provision and good. Not to trap us in silly little jobs that we have created to perpetuate this money game that has become out of control.
So many are stuck in their ego – still needing to awaken and mature. People wanting to acquire for the sake of showing off. For the sake of “proving” something. You prove nothing by perpetuating a broken system. You prove that you are blind and lost in your ego. You prove that you have been bought by the game of money and have forgotten the actual point of life.
I don’t want to capitalize over the head of my brother, my sister, my family, my friends. Why would I want to enslave you? Perpetuate a system that is keeping mothers from their children? Forcing people into work for the sake of money when the system of work is meant to be a system of co-operation and contribution for the sake of HAVINGNESS.
We have put our security on money – when the security belongs when we can be in connection to each other. When we can create systems that leaves no one behind because HAVINGNESS is all there is.
THE EARTH HAS ALREADY PROVIDED.
THE LAND IS FREE. YOU, MAN, HAVE PUT A PRICE ON THE LAND WHICH HAS NEVER CHARGED YOU A PENNY FOR IT TO PROVIDE FOR YOU.
How dare you place a price on this Earth? How dare you put a price on the land? How dare you turn this place into a pit of competition?
People in cars driving to jobs they hate for money. Abandoning their families. Crying in lunch breaks. Depression. Anxiety. Suicides. Polluting the Earth. We can do better.
The moon is looking beautiful out tonight. It makes me think of you. It makes me think of music, the desert, charcuterie board with red wine and holding you close.
Damn, this year got me rocked.
After the suicide of two people I loved, I’m shook.
This life is temporary. What’s worse is that there are people suffering to varying degrees on this planet.
WTF is going on? What are we doing to one another? Why are homes hundreds of thousands of dollars? Why are we making it so stressful when we could be making it so beautiful, peaceful, incredible instead?
HEAVEN ON EARTH.
This idea of being a New Earth Leader keeps swirling in my mind.
WTF does that even mean?
It just means being a good fucking human who cares about the planet and the others in it to give it you plain and short.
We should be tending to the land. The land is our home. Since when do we charge for what is our birth right?
Why are we putting a price tag on what is already given to us freely by mama Earth?
I’m livid bro.
What’s fucking worse is the ripple effect of our shitty consciousness.
Young girls made to feel like their bodies are not good enough, leading to eating disorders, body dysmorphia, cutting behaviors and suicide.
I’m pissed.
WTF is going on? What are we doing to one another?
Borrow money from banks to go to college. To get a job to pay for the money you borrowed. To borrow to buy a car to drive to the job, you’re in debt to get. To borrow to buy a home and be a slave for 30 years to pay that mortgage. Debt on debt on debt on debt.
The money circulates between the banks. It just goes from Chase to Chase when you swipe at the grocery store and the clerk receives the transaction to their bank.
What is this game we’re playing?
Is this really the vision guys?
There is a lot to be grateful for. There is a lot that is working. There is a lot that is good. There is a lot that is truly amazing, beautiful and we should be so proud of.
And there is also so much we need to look at, revise and improve. A lot to take accountability for. A lot of shit to fix. I’m exhausted just thinking about it.
Anyway. I don’t wanna overwhelm you with my nonsense and endless complaints.
On another note…
Reality is so interesting to me.
I’ve been so on the fence lately about magic, miracles, quantum energy, manifestation and all inexplicable matters that evoke a sense of “there is more here than meets the eye” type vibe.
But then coincidences and synchronicities happen that you can’t help but suspect “divine intervention” is happening or that perhaps God is listening after all.
I don’t know. I’m lost.
My heart hurts deeply sometimes. It’s actually been beating irregular lately too. I saw a doctor about it. I’ve had a few moments where it was hard to breathe for like 3 seconds.
I’m also counseling people in a mental health setting.
I’m also trying to find my ultimate purpose. And figure my shit out as always.
Gahhh…..
There is so much I wish to say and pour out. I wish I could hug every human, myself included and just send everyone a deep message of hope, love, and courage. To assure myself and everyone else that it’s ok and will be ok always. I really wish I could.
“Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay it’s not the end.”
Does not the Earth provide all we need?
Behold the trees – they grow freely without charging anyone a buck
Behold the beasts in the fields — they concern not with credit scores and name brand shoes
The Earth provides.
It provides the fruits, the plants, the wheat, the water, the air, the ground for you to lay
Mama Earth has given birth to you and didn’t charge you a penny for it
You then take of the Earth and put a price on it.
You say “650,000 dollars for this home.”
What is this game we are playing?
What are we doing to each other?
What are we doing to our freedom?
What are we doing to our Earth?
Why are we making each other suffer when we could make peace and love instead?
We can make joy, health, abundance, freedom be the norm.
Yet here we are — needing to borrow 650,000 from a bank plus interest so we can slave doing work just to generate money for what the Earth has already provided to you
Work is inevitable.
To eat you must prepare your meal — there is work in that.
To have shelter you must construct it — there is work in that.
Work and money are two different things.
Why not work to create what is good?
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Sometimes my soul cries
When I see what we are doing to our Earth
To each other
We can do better.
We have created a world that is built on living off money, rather than living off LIFE
Why do many of us work?
To make money to pay the bills
Like housing, lights, food, etc….
What if we changed the reason why we worked instead?
Why work for money when we can work for havingness and contribution
What if we didn’t need to pay for housing, because we understand that housing is just a need and we provide this for each other simply because we need it
What if we had more people grow their food and we stopped over capitalizing on each other
What if we did things because they were good to do and not because of money
What if we didn’t charge for lights because we know lights are good for us and lights is something we provide for each other so we could see in the dark
What if the systems we create were created for our joy, ease, well being and good rather than profit because we have to play this game of make money to pay bills rather than we work to contribute to our peace and enjoyment and provision
The earth provides what we need
The earth provides the trees that we use for wood to make our homes
Why are we making it harder for each other to exist on this planet?
So many are depressed, sad, anxious, lonely, scared, stuck because of what we’re doing with our economic system
Borrow from the bank to go to school
Borrow from the bank to get a car
Borrow from the bank to get a house
INTEREST INTEREST INTEREST
Interesting for the banks, slavery for the human
Then you go to work to make a little money to just get by
just try to stay afloat
Running in a hamster wheel that doesn’t allow us to flourish
What the F is this bullshit?
We are human beings. We are born of this earth. This amazing earth which provides us with bananas, oranges, strawberries, wheat, pineapples, and each other
We are intelligent
We are creative
Why are we making it hard for us to exist?
Why are we putting ourselves in prisons?
Staring at screens for hours a day, stuck inside, alienated from our families
Rigid systems, taxes left and right
WHAT THE F IS THIS!?
I’m mad.
And I think we could do better
Something isn’t right here with our systems.
Anybody else feel this?
The Earth provides every resource we need
We, the humans, use our intelligence to manipulate materials into goods for our use
We cut the tree, turn it to wood
We take the wood and turn it into houses, chairs, tables, paper
We, the humans, invent our systems… we co-create our reality. We’re just making it up. We make the rules, the laws, the systems.
Let’s chat on the money system…
We’ve invented the money system to aid in the trade of goods and services
But the way we are currently operating feels to me less than optimal
It’s NOT optimal that we capitalize on our basic needs, because then so much of our energy is wasted when it could be better allocated for improving operations, well-being, enjoyment, pleasure and an overall better life experience across the board.
Because of the current operating system so much of our time is spent working to make money to pay for goods that would otherwise not be necessary to continue to pay for, but we do because of capitalism.
I’d like to speak specifically on HOUSING for the sake of illustrating this point.
After you have built your home/shelter, the thing is built. It’s DONE. It need not be bothered unless some repair is needed. Outside of repairs and upgrades being made over the many years, for the most part the home is DONE. There is no need to keep “PAYING” for it, AKA exerting ENERGY, AKA make MONEY to keep PAYING for a thing that is already DONE. But whyyyy do we do it? CAPITALISM.
And beyond that, we have governmental forces wanting to TAX (aka make money) on LAND, whereas LAND is intrinsically free of monetary value. Land is a natural space that has no actual intrinsic monetary cost. It is humans that are putting a monetary cost to an otherwise costless thing. Why? Because of the current system at hand.
There are many people who benefit from the way things are who would have no incentive to make any changes. There are many who have studied and understood the “game” and are playing the “game” and thus perpetuating the system as is. Even if a new person becomes wealthy from capitalism and now is blessed with riches, opportunities, ease and comfort, that person will still not thrive as optimally as possible because the world in which we are co-creating isn’t an optimal world.
Ok, I kind of went off the rails with that last point there as it’s quite a high level perspective.
The point I am making isn’t that capitalism is bad or good. The point I’m making is that there is something off about how we are currently operating and I believe it could be better.
I believe we could have much better systems that waste less of our personal energy. Systems where we don’t have to waste time to make money just to pay for certain resources that could simply be a given. Instead our energy could be better allocated and put towards doing epic things that make us more intelligent, help us have more fun, joy, pleasure and have an AMAZING TIME on this beautiful Earth.
The point is we could be LAUGHING more, loving more, we could be healthier, happier, and more at ease in our bodies. We could be seeing the world. We could actually make it to MARS in our lifetime. We could feed EVERYONE. We could probably even figure out something mind blowing like creating a TIME MACHINE!!
But no. We are POORLY allocating our time to pay hundreds of thousands of dollars for wood we found of the Earth in nature for free just because it turned into a house.
Like come the fuck on. I KNOW we can make a better system than this.
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