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Reflect Out Loud

"The unexamined life is not worth living." – Socrates

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Glimpse Of Heaven

There are times when I really do see it.

I’m comfortable in my skin. Really living my purpose.

You’re by my side. We can design our day, better yet, our lives as we please.

You’re free and fulfilled. I’m free and fulfilled.

There are no borders.

We’re healthy. Abundance flows.

It’s beautiful. We’re beautiful. Life’s beautiful.

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Don’t Give Up

I wish you could see how strong you really are.
How capable.

How everything you’ve ever wanted is but a choice away.

That if you believed and saw the light within you’d be unstoppable.

I am learning that in order to make life happen you gotta really want it. You could have your dreams or you can have your excuses but you can’t have both.

It doesn’t even have to be difficult. There are ways to break down big goals into smaller bite size goals that can be easily accomplished. 

What do you want?
Really. 
What do you truly want?

Are you afraid to dream big?

Or are you able to dream but tell yourself it just isn’t possible?

Well. 
I’m here to tell you that you CAN dream big and you CAN make it happen.

The thing is, that BIG dreams require BIG action.

Are you up for the work?
Because nothing comes without energy. 
Energy will be needed to bring about that vision into reality.

It can be done in easy, small steps.

Are you willing to be patient?

Great accomplishments take time.

Are you willing to enjoy the process and be happy in the here and now as you move towards the climax of your life?

Are you willing to remain present? Remain joyful every step of the way?

Are you willing to stay committed? Encouraged even when there are unexpected setbacks?

Life is unpredictable. We gotta learn to adapt. Adjust. Be flexible.

Play. Dance. Move with the flow.

Know that you have everything it takes, keep at it, and don’t give up.

 

Reflecting… Out Loud

Who has the answers?
Is it you — girl in the corner twirling a charcoal pencil between your fingers, arched over the sketches of portraits in your high waist jeans and blue 1970’s vest draped over a loosely fitted, eggshell button down shirt?

I woke up from a different version of a dream I had during my childhood:
Jesus comes back and I am left behind.

I see an expansive white light cutting through the fabric of space revealing light shaped figures of men in horses. In the moment it was clear what was separate from the light. And I, left behind, on the other side of the light, suddenly struggled with the realization that I was wrong. I chose wrong. As I frantically fought my way through unfamiliar people and objects in attempt to approach the light to plead that “I didn’t know any better,” my awareness beyond the dream state chimed in saying, “This can’t be right. This has to be a dream.”

WTF…

This week I’ve been contemplating “what’s the point?”

Well. That’s actually a common contemplation of mine.

But it’s more often been in the forefront of my mind the question of “What truly is the point of all this and what is the right answer?” If there is no “right” answer, how do I really know that’s true? How much more right is it to say “There is a right answer” vs. “There is no right answer?” when we don’t have ultimate proof of either.

Sigh.

Let’s talk about psychedelic experiences for a moment. 
Are they real? Or are they simply your brain responding to powerful chemicals? Nothing truly mystical or magical here – only your brain having a response to a disruption in its normal neural circuitry which manifests itself in symptoms like disassociation, distorted vision, distorted sense of time,  blended perception of senses, (seeing colors, tasting sounds), visual hallucinations, among others.  
When we have a psychedelic experience are we tapping into some real, alternate realm? Is there REALLY AND TRULY some other dimension where there are beings of forms beyond the earth existing?
Or is it just your brain making these things up in response to a drug and then people come out of it thinking it’s real when it’s just as fake as a Hollywood movie?

What do you make of the works by Alex Grey?

What is true about the nature of reality?
Do the people who promote the law attraction have it right?
Are we really just energy and we can manifest anything we want into our life simply by becoming a vibrational match?
Sometimes these thoughts scare me. Because if this is true, I am fucked. My thoughts can go to some pretty dark places and the last thing I need is to manifest them into reality.

Co-relation does not mean causation.  

Who really knows whats going on here?
Is it the Scientists? The Christians? The Buddhists? The Quantum Physicists?
Can someone please tell me – why? For what am I here? 
Why is there something rather than nothing?

Does this all truly matter in the end? Or is it truly meaningless? 
Which is it?
What even is “the end?” Is there life beyond this?

If I knew, would I be satisfied with the answer? 
How would I know that I know?

How can I truly know something?

I have my basic senses to guide me. But they’re not enough. There is so much that they do not detect. And my intellect is that of a mere, average human. 

Maybe I’ll never know. What if this “I’ll never know” attitude is what stops me from ever digging to find out? 

Why do I even care?

I wish I didn’t.

I wish I was someone who didn’t care.
Someone who could just live their life in peace. Not feeling the need to seek anything. To know anything. 

Someone like the girl in the corner twirling the charcoal pencil between her fingers.

 

 

Do The Damn Thing

Make your suffering count. Pay a price for the life you actually want.


For a long time I have imagined myself as a this great successful person that has helped and touched many lives with inspiring and motivational messages. And then I realized… Oh, I actually have to do something to get to that success. I can’t just sit here on my couch eating McDonald’s expecting Jesus to come down from heaven with a million dollars and a bunch of loving fans for me. I gotta do the damn thing.

And this reality is something pretty scary to face. Whether I fail or succeed is my own doing. I am responsible for my story. I am responsible for what I make of my life. Those chiseled abs I want aren’t just gonna carve themselves. That book I wanna write isn’t just gonna pop into existence. I gotta put in the work. I gotta do the damn thing.

I can fantasize about an abundant, successful career and book but unless I start taking the necessary action and start writing the damn thing it’s never going to come to fruition. It’ll just remain a fantasy.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve sat here and thought to myself “Oh, I gotta start working on that book.” It’s been over 5 years that I’ve had that thought. And how many pages have I written? 0.

Thoughts and dreams are wonderful things to have. But only actions have actual credibility in the real world.

We have to get honest with ourselves and see what are the actions necessary to create what we want to create and whether or not we are truly willing to put in the sacrifice to make it happen. Even if we are creating something we truly love and are truly passionate about there will still be hard work involved. There will still be a price to pay. There will still be effort and energy to exert. That’s just life.
Even the basic activities in life require energy and effort – like getting out of bed, brushing our teeth, making breakfast, etc…  so why would it be any different when it comes to creating the life and success we know we want to achieve? It’s not different. It’s going to take real effort. It’s going to be painful and really difficult at times – but it’ll be worth it because it’ll bring into existence the results you actually want. So make your suffering count! Suffer for the thing you actually do want and stop suffering for the things you don’t.

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Break Free

“Dream on little dreamer.
Follow all of your signs.
You gotta gather up what you need,
You gotta choose a direction.
And when the moment is right for you,
You gotta go. You gotta keep your ideals high. You got to know that the sky belongs to no one. You know you got to go.” – Above & Beyond

It’s both frightening and beautiful when you begin to break free of the shackles holding you back from being whole. When you begin to shed old skin and birth anew.

When you begin to recognize your value and embrace the courage to speak up and soar above those who consciously or unconsciously tried to pull you down. And many times that person was yourself. But not any longer. Today is the day to break free.

 

No Apologies

Why must I apologize for the way I feel? For the way I think? I am not a murderer or a thief. I just want to kiss mouths and travel the world. I just want to have my own opinions and say “I prefer red” when the flamboyant waiter says “we have a large selection of white wines.”

I am a dreamer and I adore my fantasies. I am awake because I must be.

Let’s ride this unicorn and have wild hair. Let’s breath underwater and dubstep on crashing waves.

Will you meet me in my dreams? Where we can be anything and do everything unapologetically. This linear world is getting old.

Stop Wishing – DO IT.

Stop Wishing – DO IT.
Stop wishing for the things you want and just start DOING the things you want.
Stop wishing you could travel more – go sell some used crap you no longer need and book a cheap ticket to the closest place you’ve never been to. Even if it’s just for one or two days. DO IT – TRAVEL. Stop wishing.

Stop wishing you had a better body and START working out. Right now. Stop reading this and do some jumping jacks, push ups, crunches and jog in place. Stop wishing. DO IT – WORK OUT.

Stop wishing you could eat better. PHYSICALLY STOP PUTTING CRAP IN YOUR MOUTH. Put 1 sugar in your coffee instead of 500. Eat carrots and celery for snacks instead of a snicker bar. Stop wishing. DO IT – EAT HEALTHY.

Stop wishing you could go back to school. Use your time to go online and search for schools, financial aid, scholarships, payment plans, loans, programs, alternative methods to the education you want. Stop wishing. DO IT – GO TO SCHOOL.

Stop wishing you had the courage to leave your unhealthy relationships behind. Speak your mind and walk away without turning back. Stop wishing. DO IT – EMBRACE COURAGE.

What are you wishing for? Whatever it is – Stop wishing. DO IT!

Are you doing it yet?
#toughlove

Note To Self: TOUGH LOVE

DISCLAIMER: If you are sensitive to vulgar words – you should probably stop reading now, I used a few in this post.

There are a bunch of beautiful kind words I wanted to post here today.

But instead, this is what it will be for now:

STOP BEING A LITTLE BITCH! SUCK IT UP! TOUGHEN UP!
STOP BEING A CRY BABY ASKING FOR THE APPROVAL OF OTHERS SO YOU COULD BE OK!

APPROVE YOURSELF!!!!!!

LOVE YOURSELF!!!!!

YOU DEFINE YOURSELF AND STOP ASKING OTHERS TO APPROVE OF YOU SO YOU CAN TAKE ACTION.

JUST DO IT AND SHUT THE FUCK UP – GET IT TOGETHER AND STOP BEING A LITTLE VICTIM THINKING THE WORLD OWES YOU SOMETHING!!!

GOSH!!! GET IT TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE! SOMETHING SO MUCH GREATER THAN YOU IS HOLDING YOUR HAND JUST MOVE GOD-DAMMIT!!!! MOVE YOUR DAMN FEET AND HANDS AND MOUTH AND SPEAK AND DO AND ACT!!!!

STOP ASKING EVERYONE ELSE AND THEIR MOTHER’S WHAT THEY THINK YOU SHOULD DO –

WHAT DO YOU WANNA DO?? 

WHAT DO YOU THINK??

WHERE DO YOU WANNA GO?

TAKE THE WORLD BY THE BALLS AND BE THE CREATOR OF YOUR STORY.

Sorry guys… sometimes I gotta be tough… Sometimes we need a slap in the ass.

Believe – believe against all odds – believe so hard that you SQUEEZE YOUR DAMN DREAMS FROM THE REALM OF ETERNITY INTO THE REALM OF REALITY. BELIEVE SO HARD THAT YOU COME TO KNOW YOUR DREAMS ARE TRUE…

It’s not gonna happen over night – it can, of course, if you literally believe hard enough – but if it doesn’t just trust, trust and believe that your victory will come. I am still in the trust phase, trying to cope in this damn, harsh world but I know together we will make it! I know we will see better days!

🙂 BREATH.

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