I was petting Luna the dog and felt so inspired to write this after.
I was observing just how perfect all her hairs are. I noticed my hand petting her and the sensory experience of “feeling”. I am marveled at the incredible design work of existence.
There is no way you can convince me there isn’t something incredibly special happening right before our eyes. I am speechless in the face of it all. How intelligently designed our reality is. I am marveled. Taken aback and breathless.
When I stop to contemplate it all I cannot help but feel this ecstatic wonder. Deep excitement! Why would we take this experience for granted? How could we walk around numbed and dull? Are we drugged and hypnotized into thinking any of this is just “normal”? GAHHHHH, I want to shout it from the rooftops and mountains – “WE EXIST!!! AND IT’S EPIC!!!”
It excites me so much I want to sing. I want to turn my life into a musical. I want to dance, prance, skip, hop, and twirl into the ethers like a fairy.
How are we not LOSING it with blissful awe at the magic that is before us?
I want to be lost in the magic every day. I want to ADORE each moment, even the ones I rather not experience.
Let’s hold hands and co-create something beautiful. Something we are excited to wake up to and play in.
It’s up to us. We are the ones co-creating the systems, the laws, the roads, the cars, the twinkies.
It’s us.
It’s up to us.
The dream feels so much better than the reality.
And as a dreamer, I just want to live in the fantasy.
I want to live in the Ether.
I want to be in the lightwave.
This morning I was walking the neighborhood towards the beach,
The temperature felt perfect.
The air felt sweet and filled deeply in my lungs.
I felt a juicy sense of peace.
“This.” I thought. This is how we are meant to be feeling.
Not rushing around trying to make ends meet.
Not feeling like we are worried about resources,
afraid we won’t have money.
We are meant to be LIVING.
We are meant to be provided for because the Earth already provides all we need.
The Earth grows our food freely.
The Earth grows the resources we need for our homes.
The Earth gave us the animals,
it gave us EACH OTHER.
We should be caring for each other.
Working as a way to contribute to our well-being and good.
WTF is all this extra non-sense?
I’m not having it.
We can be so dulled down by the way society has beaten us into a reality we may not be that excited to wake up to.
We are doing it.
We should live with deep sighs of relief. With peace in our hearts. With health pulsating through our bodies. Yet we are tense, afraid, rushing, stressed. WTF is that about?
We should have time for each other. Time for our babies. Time for simply living. Our energy is so poorly allocated. We are working to raise money to pay rent which is a never ending cycle when the Earth has already provided the materials but capitalism won’t stop running you down. It infuriates me.
I know something is off here. And I am going to do something about it. Even if it’s just write you this message. “Alone we can do so little, together we can do so much.”
It seems to me we are walking around numb to life
Rather than living in a state of bliss and breathtaking awe, our spirits are weighed down —
“Depressed” or “Oppressed” per se
It’s as if our magic and magnificence is being stuffed, suppressed.
It’s as if we were medicated.
We’ve been brought down to this dense state of being that is so far off from what it could really be!
My friend, open your eyes, BEHOLD!
Do you not see what is before you?
There IS rather than not IS
And not only is there IS, but the IS that IS is intelligent
This is mind blowing!!
It’s tremendous!!
Now, something feels off to me.
Out of all the magnificent experiences we could be having it’s as if we have been diluted – desensitized.
How did this happen?
How could we not be living in such awe that all our time is not simply spent on BLISSING out
Loving, playing, spending time together
We should be celebrating
Working together
Making it easier for each other
Making in GOOD
Why on Earth do anything other?
Live in stress? Fear? What’s even that about??
We should be hugging each other. I want to know your name. Your favorite color. And then I want to bring you flowers of that color.
I want to know your favorite food, and then make it and share it with you!
I want to sing songs with you and then swim in the water with you.
I want you to tell me your favorite joke.
I want us to dance and make art and share the abundance with the others.
MY FRIENDS, what is going on?
Are we asleep or are we awake?
Are you ALIVE??
LIVE LIVE LIVE LIVE LIVE!!!
Does not your lungs get filled with this same air? Do you not feel the ecstatic pleasure present without this fear? Without this judgment? Without this shame?
GAHHH sometimes I want to BURST from this insurmountable joy and let it spill into the heart of the world in hopes we could hold hands in solidarity–in peace, in love, and in delicious ecstasy.
Do you ever feel that too?
For a moment I closed my eyes and I could see it…
True peace
True health
True well-being
Safety
A deep knowing of it all being okay
Feeling connected
Cared for
Loved
This is how we should be living
Not in fear, scarcity, pay-check to pay-check
There are moments where I feel so much certainty over the plan of God over our lives.
That we are meant to be well. We are meant for havingness, abundance, freedom, joy, connection, love, peace. This is where we are meant to be living from.
Deep down I feel like I know this to be true to my core.
I can hear it in the music.
I can picture it in my mind.
Why have we gone so astray?
I feel so small in the face of it all. It’s so noisy sometimes I can’t find who I am. I can’t hear my own voice. I can’t tell if you’re really there.
God I thought you were real. I thought you were there. I thought you cared. I thought we mattered. Don’t let the world suffer.
There are times when I really do see it.
I’m comfortable in my skin. Really living my purpose.
You’re by my side. We can design our day, better yet, our lives as we please.
You’re free and fulfilled. I’m free and fulfilled.
There are no borders.
We’re healthy. Abundance flows.
It’s beautiful. We’re beautiful. Life’s beautiful.
I wish you could see how strong you really are.
How capable.
How everything you’ve ever wanted is but a choice away.
That if you believed and saw the light within you’d be unstoppable.
I am learning that in order to make life happen you gotta really want it. You could have your dreams or you can have your excuses but you can’t have both.
It doesn’t even have to be difficult. There are ways to break down big goals into smaller bite size goals that can be easily accomplished.
What do you want?
Really.
What do you truly want?
Are you afraid to dream big?
Or are you able to dream but tell yourself it just isn’t possible?
Well.
I’m here to tell you that you CAN dream big and you CAN make it happen.
The thing is, that BIG dreams require BIG action.
Are you up for the work?
Because nothing comes without energy.
Energy will be needed to bring about that vision into reality.
It can be done in easy, small steps.
Are you willing to be patient?
Great accomplishments take time.
Are you willing to enjoy the process and be happy in the here and now as you move towards the climax of your life?
Are you willing to remain present? Remain joyful every step of the way?
Are you willing to stay committed? Encouraged even when there are unexpected setbacks?
Life is unpredictable. We gotta learn to adapt. Adjust. Be flexible.
Play. Dance. Move with the flow.
Know that you have everything it takes, keep at it, and don’t give up.
I think a lot. A lot.
I realize that most of my thinking hinders my ability to simply experience the beauty of the present moment. The sounds. The smells. The colors. The joy of being part of the eternal now.
My thoughts give rise to my emotions, which gives rise to more thoughts, and circles endlessly.
When I interrupt my thinking mind I feel peaceful. I don’t project myself into the future or wallow in my past or my fears.
Letting the thoughts just play like a song on a radio allows me to be the observer of the thoughts without identifying or giving them more energy to persist.
When I let my thoughts carry me away like the mighty waves of an ocean, I lose myself in my mind. I drown. I start to believe my limiting thoughts are my reality. I play and replay scenarios in my head. I remember the past. I rehearse for the future. I replay all my fears. I analyze. Overthink. I beat an idea down over and over until I am overwhelmed and uneasy.
Then I remember I have a choice. I can either live in my head or live in the moment. Do I live in the mental stories or do I actually live? The stories make me feel good or make me feel bad, or something in between. The stories do not provide lasting peace as they are always changing, analyzing, criticizing, judging.
Regret. Fear. Anxiety. Love. Nostalgia. Guilt. Shame. Sadness. Pride. Creativity. My myriad of emotions. It’s all tossed in my head like a salad.
Then I chose to take a seat. I just sit there and watch the thoughts. I watch them until they are done rising and sinking. I let them ride but I don’t join. I actively interrupt the thoughts by commanding myself to “Be here. Be present.” I take deep breaths and focus on the feeling of the air filling my lungs and then releasing.
In…
Out…
In…
Out…
Be here.
Be present.
In…
Out…
In…
Out…
Be here.
Be present.
My mind becomes quiet. I am brought back to the present moment where everything is ok. The colors penetrate my eyes. The smells dance in my nostrils. The sounds tickle my ears. The air makes sweet love to my lungs. I am well. I am here. I am not identified with the stories in my head. I am not my memories. I am not projecting myself into the future. I am not trying to control. I am not trying to do more, be more, have more to prove some point to myself or the world. I just am. I just am this living being who is settled in peace, inner stillness and soothing joy.
“When you finally have a last look at your life you don’t want to then realize you’ve done everything while forgetting to have fun.” – Laura Gonzaga
Go out into the world and do what lights you up. Go ahead and do the things that bring you joy. Do them not because you want some kind of reward or recognition, do it simply for the pleasure the activity brings you. Rewards and recognition may or may not come, and this shouldn’t be the reason to stop you from just doing what you enjoy.
I really love to draw, but I have no real artistic talent. I can’t draw a beautifully realistic picture, and even my stick figures come out funny. I can imagine deeply creative work in my head, I just don’t have the skills to translate my vision using my hands on pen and paper. But I draw my “crappy” art work anyway! I do it just because it’s fun. I do it just because I enjoy it.
What is it that you like to do but have been putting off because you’re too afraid you’re not skilled enough?
Go do it!
Sing if you love to!
Dance if you love to!
Draw if you love to!
Bake if you love to!
Make crafts if you love to!
Write if you love to!
Don’t worry about whether you’re great at it or who is better than you, do what you like to do simply because it lights you up! Everything else will follow from there :)!
Here’s my art below! 🙂 It’s called “Never too late.” Because indeed, it’s never too late to just do something you love because you love it and just for fun.
There are moments in time where I feel so bored and so blah about life and where I am headed. I start thinking about all the things that went wrong and how I should have taken action earlier. I ruminate.
Yesterday I heard a powerful message by Shirly Joy Weiss, where she reminds us of how normal this act of having negative thoughts is. She goes on to say that it would be a joke to think that we, as humans, wouldn’t experience negative thoughts and emotions. She reinforces that it would be a joke to think that even spiritual teachers themselves don’t go through difficult moments and have negative thoughts and emotions. She recalls to us that this is a fact of life and it’s one of the most normal of experiences. Hearing her reaffirm these statements just made me feel so much better about being human. It’s ok to be bored sometimes. It’s ok to have negative thoughts. All these things come and go. Even the positive thoughts come and go. Our thoughts don’t define us – not the positive, not the negative. We will experience highs, lows, neutrals, in betweens and all else in the spectrum. This is what it means to be alive. To experience. To learn. To be.
We just have to flow with it and remind ourselves that we are so much more than our thoughts and we have to continue to persevere. Let’s persevere together! We can overcome our obstacles and not feel bad because sometimes we fall a little short. We’re human! It’s part of the program!
We got this. Let’s keep on moving! Keep on dancing to the beat of our beautifully unique soul!
WE ROCK!
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