So I realize I’ve been selfish
Mourning the fact that I am here but eventually will die and everything I did was for nothing….
But I realize I’ve been thinking about it too selfishly
Thinking about what’s in it for ME
and what I’m GETTING from this experience of being alive
and how everything I create for ME I’ll have to let go of and how sour that makes me feel
But lately I started thinking less about me and more about the others
more about how I want to leave the Earth after I’ve been it in so that generations after me could have a nice time — so they can sit on the shade of a tree I planted
Thinking about life in this way has given me new found hope
It makes me less sad to think about everything being taken away from me when I die because it at least gives me comfort to think that at the end of it all I could at least leave something of value behind for others to enjoy long after I am gone
I am thinking of the impact I can make
and the legacy I can leave behind….
I’ve been thinking less about what can I GET and more of what can I GIVE
Knowing that what I receive is a byproduct of all the lives I get to serve and help along the way
I just want this life experience to be as good as it can be for all of the living beings involved
and hopefully I can manage to do that
I also think I’m in love
and maybe I’ll have a baby
lol absolutely absurd… I can’t imagine myself being a mom — that is literally the wildest idea I have ever entertained
anyway — just a thought for now
I still got a lot of traveling to do
and all of that can wait….