Do you ever miss someone you don’t even know yet?
Like there is something or someone out there you are longing for?


From time to time I get this feeling.

As if the peak of my experience hasn’t arrived yet. So I live here craving this other moment in the future I know is waiting for me. Or more accurately said, delusionally believe is waiting for me.

I was walking to the farmers market today and this feeling of monotony came over me. It reminded me of the fact that you meet someone, you fall in love, it’s romantic for a bit but then the reality of life sets in. The normalcy. The walking down the street together to run the same old errands. The sitting on the couch. The noises he makes when he’s eating and the dirty clothes that are left on the floor. The romance fades. The butterflies. The fantasy.

Everything just becomes… normal.

Do you think sometimes we create drama out of boredom?

I mean once you’ve got the house, the partner, the garden, the car, the travel – then what?

I don’t know…

Sigh.

I miss you.