The world is so big.
And there is so much to it.
So much to learn.
The level of information is so enormous that it leaves me paralyzed in indecision.
it’s been so long since I have written here.
There is so much to say I don’t even know where to begin.
I hate when I just tell you “there’s so much to say” and then I don’t even say anything that’s truly revealing…
Thank you for always being here.
Through the ups and the downs and the silence.
I want to share more with you again.
To tell you everything that has been on my mind.
I will. Very soon!
What is this experience? This human experience. This body. This stuff. This reality??
Am I just here and then I’m gone??
If I will be truly gone and this is truly all there is — what will I make of it?
not some boring ass shit that’s for sure.
But I’m still trying to figure it all out… (as usual, as always…)
Will I ever really know? Or at least have a confident belief? Right now — all I know is that I don’t actually know the real answer.
I have some answers, like if I drop something it’ll fall and if I put water over the stove it’ll boil after some time… you know, basic shit… but true fundamentals — I still am clinging to what Descarte said, “I am, I exist,” << that I know for sure… but anything further in a fundamental way I am still in process of discovery