There are times when I really do see it.
I’m comfortable in my skin. Really living my purpose.
You’re by my side. We can design our day, better yet, our lives as we please.
You’re free and fulfilled. I’m free and fulfilled.
There are no borders.
We’re healthy. Abundance flows.
It’s beautiful. We’re beautiful. Life’s beautiful.
I am so in love with my life right now it’s overwhelming. This is not common for me. I don’t even know what to do with it.
The level of creativity that is pulsating through my body is to the level where it’s giving me anxiety. This anxiety in part is felt like excitement. Heart racing. Ideas flowing through my mind like a river.
There was a moment I jumped up and down on my bed in expression of excitement.
I am having PINCH ME moments.
So many beautiful visions.
But there is also a lot of anxiety. A lot of fear.
There was a moment I literally had to hold my chest and breathe myself back into calm.
In the next few days I will be working on balancing all this energy out. I need to learn to balance myself and have clear focus. I’m practicing.
It’s extremely scary when you start to see manifestation occur before your eyes.
There’s also a lot of shit I need to detox. Cleanse. Release. Breathe out.
I’m impatient as fuck.
And there’s still so much work to be done!
*BREATHE IN*
*BREATHE OUT*
This breathing thing is REAL. It helps with anxiety FO REAL.
I wish you could see how strong you really are.
How capable.
How everything you’ve ever wanted is but a choice away.
That if you believed and saw the light within you’d be unstoppable.
I am learning that in order to make life happen you gotta really want it. You could have your dreams or you can have your excuses but you can’t have both.
It doesn’t even have to be difficult. There are ways to break down big goals into smaller bite size goals that can be easily accomplished.
What do you want?
Really.
What do you truly want?
Are you afraid to dream big?
Or are you able to dream but tell yourself it just isn’t possible?
Well.
I’m here to tell you that you CAN dream big and you CAN make it happen.
The thing is, that BIG dreams require BIG action.
Are you up for the work?
Because nothing comes without energy.
Energy will be needed to bring about that vision into reality.
It can be done in easy, small steps.
Are you willing to be patient?
Great accomplishments take time.
Are you willing to enjoy the process and be happy in the here and now as you move towards the climax of your life?
Are you willing to remain present? Remain joyful every step of the way?
Are you willing to stay committed? Encouraged even when there are unexpected setbacks?
Life is unpredictable. We gotta learn to adapt. Adjust. Be flexible.
Play. Dance. Move with the flow.
Know that you have everything it takes, keep at it, and don’t give up.
It’s been over a month since I’ve had any income. Between my cross country move from NYC to Cali, rent, bills, and food expenses my wallet is starting to shrink.
I’ve gone on a handful of interviews, applied to literally over 100 jobs in a variety of fields, but haven’t actually landed anything. So as I leave yet another interview empty handed, with no job offer and without knowing when exactly my next paycheck will be, my spirit withers.
My mind begins to wander in darkness, spiraling through thoughts of “Maybe I’m not as good of a candidate I thought I was. Maybe I’m at the bottom of the barrel. There must be something wrong with me. Maybe I won’t make it out here, and this whole childish fantasy of mine was just a delusion – just a mistake.”
But as I walk through the streets of San Diego being kissed by the sun, hugged by the gentle breeze, and hypnotized by the sight of the calming palm trees, I’m reminded that I made the right choice even though right now I am not currently where I would like to be.
I remind myself that the journey itself is the destination. I remind myself to trust the process.
There is no need to rush.
No need to fear.
No need to let anxiety or worry run the show.
I am choosing to remain in flow.
I am also accepting, digesting and processing the fact that worry, anxiety, stress and even depression are a natural response to not getting what I want, when I want, as I want. These are natural responses to being out of my comfort zone. This is okay to feel. But I am also releasing these emotions as they come up because I am actively choosing to have faith despite of the facts.
I am breathing in flow energy and breathing out resistance. I am choosing hope over fear. I am choosing trust over anxiety. I am choosing calm over stress. I am choosing joy over depression.
I am choosing to enjoy the unfolding. I’m not taking life so seriously, and am choosing to have fun as I move through this period of adjustment in my life.
This is not always easy to do.
I’ve sat alone and cried, thinking “I have no strength. I can’t do this.” I’ve had a day where I didn’t want to get up from bed because I didn’t want to go on another interview to try to convince someone of my worth and why they should hire me. I didn’t want to put another fake smile on my face. Didn’t want to get dressed. Didn’t want to socialize with anyone.
So I gave myself permission to go through my emotions. To accept, love and honor myself in this process. To comfort myself and just say, “Hey, girl, what you’re feeling is totally okay. You’re going through a challenge right now. Who wants to smile and dance when they experience rejection on top of rejection? It’s okay to feel like this. You don’t have to be strong all the time. Be human. Be wildly human.”
Pep talks help.
Texting my woes to friends who encourage me help.Then getting up the next day, remembering that, “Oh, I’m actually a badass, go getter, New York City bitch and a beloved daughter of this universe,” gives me the fuel to keep pushing forward. To keep having faith. To trust the process.
So I breathe. Roll up my sleeves and keep moving.
Try this new method of relating with the circumstances in your life: completely release having to control all the details and timing and just trust that everything will align.
If you’re anything like me then you want everything done yesterday and at the speed of light. You stress and worry about whether or not the things you want will manifest into your life. BUT ENOUGH of living like this. ENOUGH of living under pressure. Wouldn’t life be more fun if you just chilled the F* out? Where are you rushing to? Do you really think that stressing is going to make things happen faster? It’s not. Things will happen at the speed that they will happen whether you stress it or not. So why not chill out and trust the unfolding instead? It’s way more fun this way!
Take the necessary action to get yourself from A to B and then CHILL. Do your part. Whatever that is.
-Wake up early.
-Create a resume.
-Network.
-Research.
-Go to the gym.
-Eat a healthy meal.
-Start that website.
-Create that dating profile.
-Write that blog post.
-Get out of the house and go for a walk.
-Start a savings account.
-Apply to new jobs.
-Tell that person “this relationship is no longer working for me.”
WHATEVER IT IS FOR YOU THAT YOU KNOW YOU NEED TO BE DOING – GO DO IT NOW and WHATEVER RESULT YOU ARE WAITING FOR, TRUST THAT IT WILL MANIFEST.
Co-create your life with the universe.
Release feeling like it’s NOT going to happen. Change that mindset of “I’ll never make it.”
EVERY DAY tell yourself: I AM ABLE TO ACHIEVE ALL MY GOALS. LIFE WORKS IN MY FAVOR. EVERYTHING WILL FALL INTO PLACE.
TRUST!
Take action and release control.
Take action and release control.
Take action and release control.
Trust. Trust. Trust.
SMILE.
Life is working in your favor – STOP LETTING YOUR MIND TELL YOU OTHERWISE.
Start looking at the EVIDENCE that SHOWS you that what you want IS TOTALLY POSSIBLE.
Try this as an experiment: When you see yourself gettin’ all worked up because sh*t’s just not coming together exactly how you want at the speed that you want – BREATHE — and say: I release control in this moment and I relax in the knowing that this is a process and just because it is not in front of me in this PRECISE moment, does not mean that it will NOT happen.
OF COURSE it’s going to work out!
Of COURSE I am going to achieve my goal. I am unfolding into it. I am trusting this journey.
OF COURSE the universe is on my side.
OF COURSE I am loved.
OF COURSE I am capable.
OF COURSE the doors of opportunity will open for me.
OF COURSE my health is going to improve.
OF COURSE I can bounce back from this rejection.
OF COURSE I can heal my wounds.
OF COURSE I can make this change.
OF COURSE I can have a successful business.
OF COURSE! OF COURSE!
YES! YES! YES!
I am here to tell you YES. RELAX BABY! RELAX.
Take aligned action and RELAX. IT WILL HAPPEN!
Believe with me. Trust with me. Breathe with me. Take the leap with me.
IT WILL HAPPEN!
I stand at the top of the mountain looking forward to see the great expanse that lies in front of me. I stretch my arms out to embrace the air that gingerly dances around my body and plays tag with my skin – I am it. The temperature is perfect – not too hot, not too cold. I close my eyes and breathe you in. All of you. My heart pulses to the fire sweet rhythm of my soul.
I am still in love with you.
Your invisible presence never leaves, even when I am red hot coal. Even as I burst like a firecracker in early July.
My instinct is to fall blindly into your arms. To swirl like the galaxies and flow eternally like a petal lost in the winds.
Sometimes I spend so much time trying to figure out my life that I don’t actually LIVE my life.
LIVE your life!
Just listen to music and flow off into the moment. Flow into the present and just let it consume you in its all-encompassing, loving arms.
In that space – in the space of the now – there’s just no room for worry. There’s no room for analyzing. There’s no room for thinking about shoulds. No room for regrets. No room for intrusive thoughts. There’s just this feeling – this feeling of tranquility. This feeling of peace. This feeling that things are okay and that they’re gonna be okay. This feeling of enoughness.
I just breath in deep.
And it feels so fresh.
So filling.
So satisfying.
It is so delightful to just flow in this space.
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