I think the mistake that I make is that I begin to want to find salvation in you. Rescue in you. Peace in you. Security in you. Safety in you. 

I think I’m beginning to finally understand.

Though it’s taken some time.

It is something to understand conceptually, it’s another to understand it in embodiment.  

It’s a whole other to understand it both conceptually and in embodiment. 

I don’t want to feel this way anymore – this way where it feels like I’m constricting. 
Or better said, I don’t want to deny this human experience (with all its ups and downs), but I do want to get better at catching myself falling and consciously transforming my energy.