There’s just so much shit out there it’s hard to keep up. A lot of information, and some of it contradictory. Who do you believe? Who do you follow? Who really has the answers?
So much is subjective, dependent, contingent.
I sometimes find myself paralyzed by it all. I just want to pull the sheet over my head and say “Good night,” without ever having to wake up. Without having to come back to waking consciousness to deal with any of it.
Why do I have to be here? To participate? I don’t want any part. I don’t want to have to do things. Think. Figure out. Experience.
I’m good with just the black screen. With no sensory input. With no consciousness. With no awareness.
That, to me, is real peace.