I am only a passenger in this ride called life.
I was sitting here thinking about where I see myself in 6 years.
I imagined the wear and tear of time painted across my face. The mature look in my eyes. The wrinkles on my forehead more pronounced.
As I conjured up an image of my future self in my mind’s eye I wondered — am I making a conscious effort to really enjoy my experience here in this life?
This means… not allowing stress to get the best of me. This means doing more of what truly makes me happy. Eating foods that I enjoy. Going on more walks. Engaging in local activities. Having intellectual conversations with people who “get” me. Traveling. Being truly myself without fear of rejection. Enjoying the feeling of being comfortable in my own skin. Being comfortable with expressing my own opinions. Trusting my intuition. Telling more people I love them. Connecting with
positive people. Listening to more music. Going to more shows. Taking care of my body.
Treating myself with kindness, love, and unconditional positive regard.
YAAAAS to all the above and more!
One of my biggest stressors right now is my job. Boy does that place know how to run me thin. I can either change jobs or change how I approach my job (I’mma do both).
As I sit here thinking about it I realize that I can’t let myself get sucked into external pressure or self imposed pressure. This is my life. I have the power to dictate its flavor.
I no longer want to let small things bother me.
I no longer want to spend time judging myself negatively.
The decree is in… I’m fabulous. The end.
I want to take ownership of my experience.
Not let worry, fear, or stress consume me.
I want to trust that at every moment I’ll know exactly what to do.
Fuck the bullshit.
I want to enjoy the ride.
Because when the time comes when life flashes before my eyes I wanna see some awesome shit. I wanna see a film that is PACKED with laughter, fun, adventure, coffee, love, friendship, health, music, and all the great memories I’ve consciously created along this passage.
Ya with me?
January 21, 2019 at 12:19 pm
Thank you for writing this awesome post. Loved reading it.
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February 19, 2019 at 11:55 pm
Love the way you write, very insightful.
February 22, 2019 at 9:34 am
Aw, thank you!
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