A day without you feels like an eternity.

But I don’t want to get carried away.

I’ve done that and it led me to fall off a cliff I’m still licking the wounds from.

How do you remain balanced — centered, when all you want to do is get deeply lost in love?

To lose track of time and just rest my head on your shoulder while you tell me about your next business endeavor. I could listen forever.

I’m already getting carried away. Apparently I can’t help it… something about the way my astral chart is positioned apparently makes me “romantic and impractical.” #Thepattern. Sounds about right.

Anyway…I’m kinda mad. Mad that I am in a human body and not just floating in space like magical fairy dust.

These bodies just feel so dense and this world so full of nonsensical demands, I’m kinda over it.

How is it that with all our brilliance the best we’ve got is sick time, PTO, and bills?

Why aren’t our systems set up to support us to actually live? It breaks my heart seeing mothers who would want to raise their babies having to leave their babies to go do a job just to get by. Families being split up during the day when they would much rather be together, raising their babies.

Don’t get me started.

Anyway, I am dreaming up a non-profit. One where we volunteer our labor to construct each other’s homes. I’d call it “The Volunteer Society”. We could raise funds to acquire construction materials. We would come together as a collective and volunteer our time and labor to create gorgeous homes for each other. All we need is each other. The Earth has already provided what we need.

I have a lot of great ideas but often not a lot of energy for execution or enough support. A problem I keep running into that makes it very heavy for me and sometimes makes me want to give up hope.


Anyway………….


I’m in love, as usual. With you, with me, with life, with everything….

And also in despair at times…..

Bleh.

Must keep believing.

It all still feels so far away and I feel like I am failing.

Feelings aren’t facts though, so gotta watch out for the cognitive trap of “emotional reasoning”.

Idk. Nothing is a guarantee anyway.

Keepin’ the faith though. Keepin’ the faith.