I’m in disbelief…

Disbelief that you are gone. That I will never hear from you again. That this world is now void of your magic. Your brilliance.

Just the other day I caught a whiff of the laundry smell that always reminds me of you.

Every now and again when the night sky is particularly clear, I look at the stars and I’m brought back to 2021 and to the desert with you.

You…

So wise. So talented. So charming. So… words can’t describe.

I feel numb. This truth is too much to bear.

Where are you now sweet soul? Where are you now?

I’m devastated.

I wish I could remind you every day of your light. I wish I could sit with you and solve any problem that felt like too much.

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Now what? Now what from here?

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How do we move forward knowing this truth? We are here and then one day, we are not. What’s all this for anyway? Why are we making this life so complicated when we could be loving, living, and loving and living, loving and living instead?

My heart. My heart aches. For you, my friend. For you, oh world. For me. For us. For all of it.

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Be kind.



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In loving memory of you.