Not much to report but I felt like writing anyway.
Well, actually…some big changes.
I’m moving apartments.
I’m also getting ready to quit my job and take life in a new direction.
Additionally, giving less fucks about people who are shitty.
Those are my updates in a nutshell.
I’m hoping that 2019 will be a year of success. I’ll be intentionally laying the foundation for it to be so.
But things are still moving at glacier speeds, though moving nonetheless.
Or perhaps they’re moving at just the right speed but my impatient ass wants everything done yesterday.
My self diagnosed high functiong depression persists. But I do everything I can to kick it to the curb along with its ugly cousin anxiety.
I’m fine. For the most part… minus the occasional wave of depression mixed with a sprinkle of panic that smacks me in the face literally outta nowhere.
And then there are days when I’m genuinely feeling excellent. Chipper as can be. Especially when the sun kisses my skin and I’m free to design my day as I please. Ahhh, yes. More please!
I have a great feeling about this summer.
I’m going to immerse myself in plenty of activities. I’m also cutting down doing work that I don’t enjoy for money and focusing on what I do enjoy.
I acknowledge that moods are transient. Sometimes you just feel like shit and that’s fine.
I just gotta trust that everything will be okay. And I do. Despite the times doubt creeps in like a light flickered in the distance.
Then I shrug that shit off and keep it moving.
Faith. Hope. Ease. Flow.
Those are words I want to focus deeply on as my year unfolds.
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